What is it about the first of the year that brings an onset of drama into people’s lives- including my own? W and I have been dealing with some EXTREME drama over the course of the past 3 months- since about the end of October. While it has not been family drama- thank God- it has been with people we were close to. In the course of 1 phone conversation where I called to check and see if some plans were still good and to ask a simple question- that I had ever right to ask- the relationship changed drastically and I saw a very ugly side of someone who should not act in the way they did because of a job they are associated with. They were rude, judgmental, venomous, and just flat out mean and nasty to me. Once the phone conversation was over, after about 30 minutes of pure verbal vomit, I just sat in my car and cried. I had no idea that someone could be so mean to another person, especially someone they claim to love and care for. I told W that I just felt so gross after the call and even after a long, hot shower- just could not wash it off. I made the decision to no longer speak to this person, and have not since. W and I found more things during the month of November that made us very upset and in turn had to send a very difficult email about an on going issue, that caused even more drama. How sad is it that some people are so down right mean that you have to result to sending emails back and forth about relationship changing issues. I do not think sad is even the word. Sending an email though instead of “fighting” for something you love and miss is sad though. Not realizing that you have to make a choice because in life you can not have the best of both worlds – and then choosing the side that has lied, cheated, stolen, abandoned, and left destruction in their path is just plain stupid, irresponsible, and ignorant. Thankfully- my family has experience such abandonment before, we know how physically and emotionally detach and walk away.


I have friends experiencing hard stuff and drama too- in-laws who are rude and non-existent, siblings who refuse to share the love and spotlight, problems at work that lead to overall discontentment and frustration, problems with peoples perspective about their life and the need to verbalize it for the entire world to see and read. The first of the year should bring about changes and a desire to improve upon the weaknesses and negativity of the year(s) past. Instead of looking for ways to cause drama and misery- people should instead look at ways to “fix” broken relationships and better themselves.


If you can’t tell- I am hurt, upset, and in general pissed about the way this part of the New Year has begun. Nothing is harder than to sit by and watch someone crash and burn and not fight for the things and people they love and care for. It also takes a lot for me to lose respect for someone- but these people have successfully lost all of my respect. I try not to judge people’s claims of Christianity because I feel that is God’s job as he is the only one who knows their heart. These people though are the farthest from God honoring and following individuals I have ever encountered. And that makes me sad to admit, because so many people look to them for leadership and example.


Well- this post has gotten entirely too long… but God do I feel better getting all of this off my chest. If you made it to the end- thanks for reading. Please be in prayer for this situation- things will never go back to the way they were EVER, but maybe these individuals will come to their senses and realize how wrong they are in the way they are handling things.